What the fuck is wrong with this world? a question that pops up in my head whenever i see a couple or something i don't have.. So either i destroy that thing or get something better. thats exactly what happened with William.. William is from Madaba and he's half Sulti half Madabawi :P so he got our blood in him.. so i don't know where he got my MSN ID from, i guess from hi5, anyway we started talking.. he was in Australia when we started talking, and we started to like eachother, so he was coming to Amman after a couple of weeks when he finishes college over there, and we agreed to hang out for a couple of days, and more on with time i started to get closer to him, knowing everything about him.. and eventually started to think about "it".. the forbidden word.. being in a relationship with him, although he was shorter than me by 18cm but i'll live!!! more and more every day we started to plan what we're gonna do.. even the way we were gonna touch eachother.. every single moment we're gonna spend, and finally he came to Amman, and the "net attraction" became reality, we even liked eachother more in real.. and he was definitely what i wanted after the whole crap that happened with Rami & Khalid.. we spent 3 hours speaking (apparently he was just "checking" how smart i am, and i impressed him :P) after a week it was pretty obvious that we are ready to tell everyone involved in our lives that we are in a relationship now.. although we didn't think about it, about the fact that every single word we say to eachother makes us even more close, we didn't have to face the fact that we were separated and now we met... once i started questioning our "relationship".. he told me that are supposed to be like this, that we wanted eachother before since before we were born, i asked him if we are supposed to have this argument also, he said: ofcourse, because when i finish this sentence i'll be making it up for you by kissing you.. he just knew what to say and especially when to say it, when i first met him i thought i won't fall for him and he'd be just a friend.. i thought he wasn't my kind and i'll never fall for him, but i did, after 6 weeks of constant nagging, making up and falling in love even more and more, he had to go back to Australia, that was the turning point for our relationship, he told me that if i wait for him, he'll be mine and only mine also.. i told him that this is not supposed to be happening, that all of this passion will just go away in a second. he said that it won't go away, that it will stay even if we're not together.. that he doesn't want to be another descending chapter in this life, and he wants to be a one to stay.. but both me and him knew that it won't work out.. we didn't dare to say how much we love eachother before, and now we don't dare to admit the fact that its meant to end, i stayed in bed that morning, on the morning he had his flight to Perth.. the last thing i remember is him kissing my forehead and saying: for ever and for always..
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