Why do i hate this world? i have a billion answers to that question.. and right now, i have enough reasons to never ever go out on a date ever again, after whatever happened between me, Rami Khaled and Sam, later on what happened with William, then with Mohammed, and at last with Yazan, it all adds one failure after another to my so called "love life".. and to top all of that, the "Ryan - Tim" intervention made things really crappy, i already hate Ryan enough for leaving like a year ago and now i have to deal with him AND with his new guy? NO THANKS! O.K. Now its time for me to start explaining what the hell I'm talking about.
I don't really know why on the unfortunate day I decided to search on the net for gays in Jordan, anyway I did, and i found an e-mail of a guy over there, his name was Rami, so we talked on the net for a while, i started to like him.. Then he kept asking me the same question on and on again.. When are we gonna go out on a date? So I told my self: Sure what the heck? What am I gonna lose? So we went out, and from the moment i saw him, I said to my self: Jackpot! he was kinda hot, really cute eyes.. anyway later on our "date" we bumped into his best friend Khaled.. and we three spent almost an hour talking about silly stuff.. Suddenly Khaled asked me: how do you feel about Rami now you know him this far? i didn't know what to say.. So i said: if we are gonna start a relationship, he's totally cool.. & at that moment, Rami gave me a "don't be silly" look.. and it was getting kinda late, so Khaled offered to drive both of us back to our houses... so he dropped Rami near by, and then he drove me home.. he asked a couple of questions and said at the end: wow! i'm impressed!! when i got home, i started to think about Rami over and over again... Is he the one that i'm gonna finally fall for? then i got a txt msg from Rami.. saying: hey why aren't you online now? i said to my self: thats a good sign, he misses me already!! we talked a little bit on the net then i went to bed, the next day Khaled called me, saying: hey i wanna see you today.. so i said: Okey Dokey!! and i wish i didn't go to see him.. He told me a "msg" from Rami: You're not my type, adios! at that moment, i really wanted to cry, although he was just a guy that i didn't even know his middle name, but rejection it self sucks, so i told Khaled: OK, so can i go home now? aren't we done here? he said: there's another thing i wanna say.. i really like you and i'd like you to be my boy friend.. i was like: huh? am i supposed to answer to that? so i told him I'll get back to you on that in a couple of days, but the next morning i sent him a txt msg saying that i prefer being single.. He said: ok we'll just be friends, and i was totally cool with that. the next day we went out the three of us, again, i was really nervous around Rami, whenever he looks at me he smiles and i just melt inside, then we went to our "hangout" spot near Burger King, it was just a wall but it was a cool place. so i leaned on the wall, suddenly found Rami right infront of me, his lower body pushing on my lower body and his arms surrounding my waist, my heartbeat became sky high, and then he looked me right in the eye and smiled again, which made me melt even more.. and then Khaled had to come in and spoil the moment, although Rami didn't move an inch but i got a little bit nervous.. Rami sensed that and backed off.. i really hated Khaled at that moment.. anyway when i got back home i couldn't get Rami out of my head, he's just a guy i met 3 days ago and i already have a flow of feelings for him? this is so not me, not the personality i built through treachery, blackmail and backstabbing.. i had to do something about it, and fast or i'll fall for the guy for sure (and thats a bad thing ofcourse)...
i'll stop now so you wait for my next post with great anticipation :P :D
0 comments:
Post a Comment